No reasons.

Thank you all for the kindness and the time taken to read my previous 'essay-like' blog.

I know i seldom blog tat way n usually its a very emo-fied post.

But thank you thank you thank you every single one of u for emailing, msn-ing, skyping n leaving blog comments to talk me out of things.

I'm fine now with just a couple of things hogging my tiny-beany mind.

At least i've got out of the verge of exploding!

On the up up up side, i'm very happie with the Longchamp bag mum bought me b4 she left.

I rmb having tat debate with her that morning abt branded bags and hell, i think we almost fought in that cafe!

But anyhow, I m very much happie with it besides the fact that i love the WHITE but its the magnet of DIRT n STAINS. hmmm.

Thxx mummy! =)

On the other hand, I was on my way to dinner ytd and my sis checked the mail box!

N then I caught a glimpse of a bottle in the mailbox and i was thinking "which drunk freak threw his alcohol bottle in our letterbox?"

LOL. Took a closer look and it was for me!!

It was rolls n rolls of letters from my darling bro bro!!

So so so so so effing happieeeee! U really really made my day bro!=)

I love yaaaa! XD

Also yesterday nite itself i went to yum cha with Gigi after dinner!

I hvnt been out so late for such a long long long time!

Ahhh i love our bonding sessions! =))

So many days of sleeping late training actually came into use!

I came home abt 4am n I wasnt sleeeeeeepyyy!

I call tat insomia i guess!

OH n n n n I've finally told mum tat "Slow and steady wins the race!"

I've decided to take only 4 subjects next sem..

N also let go the job opportunities and put all my heads into books!

Listen up readers! please be my witness!

"I will not continue to take up Juris Doctor-Law after my degree IF i dont get a DISTINCTION for my COMMERCIAL LAW next sem!"

*pheww its taking me a lot of courage to write this down.. breathes..*

kayss.. Overall I enjoyed every single bit of ytd!

I guess tat sums up the frustrations of my previous blog!

Thank God for walking me through those hard times..

I am reading A Walk to Remember noww!

Thx nat for the intro!! I love the book! =))

Happieee Burfdayy F.B.I.L!! =)

Ehhh Its ur bd man!

Get a life! Instead of Dota-ing in front of me now!

Anyhoww, Thxx for everything!=)

Tatas readers! XD Heart u!

one day when i stop writing lil notes like these, plz congratulate me because it will mean tat i've learnt to let things go.

2.42pm

So many things.

I have so many things running tru my mind. And I have to admit that i hv been very very very emotional lately. The feeeling of joy and sorrow crashing together is definitely NOT sth u would wanna go tru. Frankly, i am suppose to be overjoyed now as if i've gotten a TER 99.9 for year 12 or straight A's for SPM. BUT no. i am not. Who gets 4 high distictions out of 4 subjects for her semester and feels sad as tho she has just lost her favourite pet! Tat's ME. Wad else cud u ask for joanne lee? I'm seriously not trying to brag abt the 4 HDs i've achieved. I am just feeling lost because many many things happened after that.

Have u ever felt sad because the people u care for is feeling torn and tatter and going tru awful hell situations? U try and try and try to mend things back together for that someone but it doesnt work at all? Wad will u do and how will u feel?! And then another friendship thing starts jamming ur head and u blame urself for this cold stony relationship that turned out this way. not long after that u found that a friendship conflict comes into ur way all over again and u waste ur tears and emotions for the wrong things in life and for the people that is making ur life so hard. but u just cant care less because tat certain somebody is ur fren after all. and then comes homesick again. your mum leaves u and u are feeling emo because u miss her presence. Home is 4 months away but u cant imagine how 4 months is gonna pass. Ur uni starts in 5 days time and u are totally unprepared for it. You still cant decide whether to work or take up another subject as ur mum wished. when all these come together, WAD ARE U TO DO? I dont give a damn for wad i'm blogging right now n just so u know i am very pissed n lost n confused and i cant care more for how you feel! urgh I nit to yell i nit ice cream i nit friendship hugs.

On the up side, I am thankful to have friends that listen to me. I may be childish and wat-so-ever. but thank kew for putting up with me, Adele, Lyn and Samuel. =>

I'm not that girl

Mum n I went to Regent Theatre to watch Wicked Broadway on wed night.

Wicked tells the story b4 Alice in the Wonderland.

It tells the story of Wizard of Oz!

It was a really great show! N the songs were fantastic!! =))

I love this song!! =))

Listen okiii! XD

Hands touch, eyes meet

Sudden silence, sudden heat

Hearts leap in a giddy whirl

He could be that boy

But I'm not that girl:

Don't dream too far

Don't lose sight of who you are

Don't remember that rush of joy

He could be that boy

I'm not that girl

Ev'ry so often we long to steal

To the land of what-might-have-been

But that doesn't soften the ache we feel

When reality sets back in

Blithe smile, lithe limb

She who's winsome, she wins him

Gold hair with a gentle curl

That's the girl he chose

And Heaven knows

I'm not that girl

Don't wish, don't start

Wishing only wounds the heart

I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl

There's a girl I know

He loves her so

I'm not that girl

I'm worried. Do u hear me?

5.35am

The Return.

I've been so ignorant to the things around me,

N annoyed by all the happenings,

N easily irritated by little little things.

I feel like I am back to the old me that i've been trying really hard to change.

N this seriously sucks.

The words they say have hidden thorns.

The things they do bleed one's heart.

The way they act is hard to bear.

I cannot be wearing a mask walking around.

I cannot be who I dont wanna be.

but for the position I am in now, I have to fake it through my way.

Welcome back, the old me.

BTW, the wait is over!

Here's us with a missing u.

p/s: Ohh n I have to start to learn to accept the fact that when u have long hair, it still looks the same AFTER a 55 dollar hair cut! Heartache leh! >.<

Mum suggested that I shud accelerate my course and do 5 subs instead of 4.

I'm thinking really hard abt this.

Can I cope? Is this wise?

I'm all confused now.

Y am I thinking twice abt 5 subjects when we had 11 subjects in SPM n it wasnt even an issue?

Yes? No?

Don't wish, don't start

Wishing only wounds the heart.

1.03am

The wait.

Here I am.. Waiting for that moment to come..

Sitting by the sofa blogging while watching the clock ticks n tocks..

Mum's finally arriving this midnight! =)

I dunno how I'm feeling now.. Immuned to all the ups and downs perhaps.. >.<

Anyhoww, I've got a hair cut..

To be honest, there isnt much difference after i blow my hair and all..

The weather in Melbourne has gone a lil haywire..

Which gives me another excuse for not making my hair look nice everyday b4 i step out of the house.. =)

Me me me. =)

On the other hand... I've officially survived in Melbourne longer than the days I have left till I finally get home!

Time will fly i know.. =)

Finally..

a GREAT BIG c0nGrAtUlAti0nS to my Bro - Lim s0o yEe for obtaining high scores for her degreee!

I'm so happie for u my dear.. <3

Hard work definitely paid off! =))

I wanna be like u toooooo! XD

kk sowie dear readers..

I've gotta admit that I dunno wad got into me today..

I'm blogging in a very moody mood if u notice..

My heart feels really confused n annoyed for God-knows-wad reason..

Please hang in there with me..

are u made of ice?

10:52pm

The Unexpected.

My walking courier- Ron Yap is finally back! =)

Weeeeeeeeeee!

Everything is suppose to seem more "colourful" n noisy now apparently.

Have been looking forward to him coming back here all these while!

Not because of him! but its wad in his luggage! HAHA. *ouch ouch kidding!*

Thank keww FBIL! XD

LOOK! O.O

THINGS TO KILL TIME ALL THE WAY FROM HOME!

Look closer! Do u spot an envelope with my big name written on it?! =)

The Unexpected #1:

A letter inside that stack of coloured papers!

Guess who?!

Definitely my very thoughtful childhood friend that is walking me through everyday over here. =) - Adele Wong. XD

The Unexpected #2:

Then then today I came home n saw a postcard for me! =)

Ahhh who could it be?!

9 Danish krone? A post card from Denmark!

Must be my beloved bro bro tat was traveling around germany!

N the familiar long lost hand writings!!

Its definitely my bro bro that I'm misssing so much!~~~~

Seee wad I mean by I am blessed with good friends! =)

I seriously love my girlfriends! <3

Thank youuuuuuuuuu very much darlings! I miss eu girls!

On a side note..

I FINALLY got time to meet up with this long lost brother bear of mine!

OMG lahh. Feels like just yesterday I saw him!

Time flies man!!

In no time we will be back in msia again!

So hang in there darlings! WE WILL BE BACK! =)

May ur lucky charms b with u. hugss.

3am