How am I suppose to feel?

The feeling is coming. i think. >.<

I refuse to fall asleep today. 

Due to the construction work tat is going

 to come along in my room after i leave, I am getting really worried abt all my precious things in my room. 

I am putting everything into the drawers like there's no tmr. >.<

N I keep repacking repacking n repacking my luggage. 

Am i excited? Or am i nervous? @.@

I feel really lost. Deeply lost. 

I hv so much to say. I hv so much to ask. I hv so much to tell. 

But time will not wait. N tat's an untwist-able fact. 

Farewells after farewells. Goodbyes after goodbyes. 

They mean a lot to me. =)

N yes. All of u mean a lot to me. 

Frankly, I still feel like i am going for a vacation. 

I din noe farewell cud be so sad until my dear Karyan cried. T.T

N i think the feeling came. 

The thing i hate most abt tmr is not tat I am leaving. 

I hate it becoz its Lutz daddy's b'd tmr n I cant celebrate with her. 

Her b'd wish last year tat I wanted to fulfill. Sighh. Crushed. T.T

But I really hope she'll hv a great one this year. =)

Happieee Burfday Daddy~~~ =)

N Lutz mummy all the way from russia contributed a blog post to me tat made me feel sad. 

Maybe tat's the feeling. Tat's the feeling tat I shud be hving. 

Becoz i feel normal now. Like how a person leaving home should feel. 

5.17am

10.2.09