So many things.

I have so many things running tru my mind. And I have to admit that i hv been very very very emotional lately. The feeeling of joy and sorrow crashing together is definitely NOT sth u would wanna go tru. Frankly, i am suppose to be overjoyed now as if i've gotten a TER 99.9 for year 12 or straight A's for SPM. BUT no. i am not. Who gets 4 high distictions out of 4 subjects for her semester and feels sad as tho she has just lost her favourite pet! Tat's ME. Wad else cud u ask for joanne lee? I'm seriously not trying to brag abt the 4 HDs i've achieved. I am just feeling lost because many many things happened after that.

Have u ever felt sad because the people u care for is feeling torn and tatter and going tru awful hell situations? U try and try and try to mend things back together for that someone but it doesnt work at all? Wad will u do and how will u feel?! And then another friendship thing starts jamming ur head and u blame urself for this cold stony relationship that turned out this way. not long after that u found that a friendship conflict comes into ur way all over again and u waste ur tears and emotions for the wrong things in life and for the people that is making ur life so hard. but u just cant care less because tat certain somebody is ur fren after all. and then comes homesick again. your mum leaves u and u are feeling emo because u miss her presence. Home is 4 months away but u cant imagine how 4 months is gonna pass. Ur uni starts in 5 days time and u are totally unprepared for it. You still cant decide whether to work or take up another subject as ur mum wished. when all these come together, WAD ARE U TO DO? I dont give a damn for wad i'm blogging right now n just so u know i am very pissed n lost n confused and i cant care more for how you feel! urgh I nit to yell i nit ice cream i nit friendship hugs.

On the up side, I am thankful to have friends that listen to me. I may be childish and wat-so-ever. but thank kew for putting up with me, Adele, Lyn and Samuel. =>